Day 5 of 31- Food & My Face In the Mirror

Monday, October 6, 2014

What comes to mind immediately when you think of food? 

For me it's comfort or indulgence or celebration. 

In my mind, I quickly jump from all things pumpkin to my 3 or 4 Mt.Dew's a day (don't hate) and the million apple recipies I want to make oh and French fries, I luuurrrrvvveeee me somme those. I can jump from resturant to resturant in my mind, rattling off my favorites from each... I think of my favorite local places to get cupcakes, my favorite for brunch and the best good old greasy burgers and fries. 

I literally have a resturant for every mood I could ever find myself in. 

Therein lies the problem. Food has become way too much about celebration or sulking and so much less about it's real purpose for survival. 

I'm an emotional eater. There, I said it. I know it but until recently I was okay with me. Now I'm not. I'm tired. I've officially grown out of my clothes and into (very snugly I might add) my post baby jeans. I don't like the way I look in the mirror. 

I'm not writing this to whine. I'm writing bc it's my truth in this season.  And not everything is fun or funny or revolutionary. It's just real. And it's kind of hard to write in words. I just recently looked in the mirror and saw someone I didn't recognize, like all of a sudden, as if I hadn't been looking at that same girl for a year! It really hit me Saturday when my most favorite nail technician (who's been visiting family in Vietnam since June) said "your face looks rounder..." Yeah, confirmation of what I already knew sister and if I didn't cherish honesty so much I'd be mad at ya, but she's right. My face (and a lot of other things) are rounder...

Having been to so many places where food is a luxury of the wealthy, I'm kind of hypersensitive to how easy it is to be gluttonous here. I think about my friend Anastasia in Rwanda who ate roasted peanuts and boiled Yucca everyday and I think of what comes to mind when she hears food. I imagine it's quite different for her, very, very different. 

So, today I'm just hoping that this is a post that some of you can relate to. I'm not out to become the next swimsuit model or crossfit icon, although both of those sound awesome, but I am out to take better care of myself and to be a better steward of the body andmind God gave me. Mind, because I'm thinking of the next meal before I even finish the one I am in a lot of times.. 

Sad but true.

I want to be the best me I can be. I also want to celebrate well without food or without gobbs of it. So much of my life revolves around gathering with people and so much of that includes food, which I love. I simply want to make an effort at better choices. 

Here's a yummy recipie aka: bunch of things I threw together and served my people to prove healthier is good. It's cleanish, minus the rice and a tad of cheese. I'm aiming for better people, there are some things I should not quit cold turkey! 

Stuffed Bell Peppers

Preheat oven to 350

6 bell peppers- tops removed and seeded, boiled to slightly tender
1 1/2 lbs cooked ground turkey
1 can black beans 
1 can yellow no salt corn
1 small can tomatoe paste
3/4 ish can of Fat Free Organic Chicken broth
Shredded cheese for tops
Salt and Perrier to taste
Taco seasonong

Dump everything in a bowl and mix. Fill peppers, top with cheese and bake for 25 min on 350. I don't measure or do anything by the book (shhhhhooocker) so  use it as a foundation/ inspirationand mix/spice yours up according to your own likes! 

Yumm! 





Terrible photos but I'm in a hurry friends! 

The next time you see me ask me if I'm holding up my end of the cleaner eating bargain and if you're struggling with letting food have too much room in your mind (aka jeans) then know you aren't alone and I'm with ya! I'll cheer you on of you decide to put things back into perspective!! 

Feel free to reach out! 

Xoxoxo
Amanda 









1 comment:

  1. I'm starting 2 weeks of the 7 challenge partially to get myself back to some cleaner eating too. I'll Che k in with you if you'll check in with me! ;)

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